Yesturday I woke up got dressed ate a small breakfast, because I believed that I was meeting a friend for breakfast, then headed off to the gym because I had a 9.30 appointment. Or so I thought. When I turned up to the gym it turned out that my appointment was actually half an hour earlier. The lady who was doing my appointment was unhappy turning up half hour earlier and I believe that I heard her bitching about people not turning up before she realised that I was there for the said appointment. So after having tell how sorry I was for being told the wrong time I did a crappy solo workout quickly because I had to meet my friend for breakfast. I arrive at the cafe and wait for my friend. She's running late. (very unlike her) I check my past msgs to see if I got the time right. It turns out i got the day wrong and in fact was meeting her today. So grumpy and feeling the universe against me i drove home and crawled back into bed fully clothed going for a take two. My belief was to have a quick snooze and start the day again. Which to some degree worked okay. I didn't have a flawless day but things did get considerably better. Even though I started making a honey sandwich for lunch to find no honey left I took a deep breath and moved on. And I think that I learnt that even though I thought the universe was against me it in fact was me against me. Thinking the world was against me made things feel a lot worse then they were. But the little nap in between did help. So next time the universe goes against me I'm going to take a deep breath and tell the universe where it can go.
I may have mentioned that I work in child care. Today a child ran past me swearing loudly (the F word). Me being the only carer to hear her had to tell her off. I took her into another room and told her how bad that word is and how offensive I found it. And as I was saying all these things I knew that I wasn't being fully truthful. I have on occasion used this word and even though I cannot condone children this word I still felt that little nagging tick in my mind. In my mind I was saying well sometimes it just slips out and many of my friends use the word and I have no problem and are never offended by them using it. Yet I was telling this child how bad it was and how disappointed I was.
I guess the conclusion I have to come to is that a White lie said to a child is okay. Its a hard thing separating your grown up life from the child life you live around the kids you look after. There just has to be a balance because unfortunately I have met many teachers in my line of work who have worked for so long with children that they treat adults like they were children. Only thew other day I heard a teacher say to another teacher "what do you say" and the teacher responded with "Thankyou" If it were said to me my response would have been "Thankyou... for being an ass wipe!" That is all for today. Hello. If anyone reads this which I highly doubt because well lets face it I'm not a celebrity, politician or Crazy lune. I am writing today about Melbourne Weather. Well it sucks. You may have heard the saying four seasons in a day. Well its true but we mainly get that in the seasons of Autumn and Spring. Today is the second day of summer and while it is sticky hot it is also pouring with rain just like it did yesterday on the first day of summer. Frankly I'm getting a little over it. Why do we even have seasons they don't stick to what they are supposed to so why should they be given the title. You can never get the right outfit because like I said it is hot but if you get caught in the rain and soaked then you're screwed. You become (and this is possible) Sweaty, wet , cold and hot all at the same time. WHY! why must it be this way. I guess I will have to do the only logical thing I can think of and move to some hot island where its summer all year round with a side of cocktails.
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